Confuse again..

Actually, I'm not in a mood right now. I thought about what I'm going to do next related to my job, and about manda, He acts so waired today. What happen with him? If He has a problem with his job, or anything which is not related to our relation, why he doesn't want to talk to me? Okay, maybe it's privacy. And If it is about our relation? Why he keeps him self in silent mode? I don't even know what is the answer. I asked him if he was oke, he said that he was. Then, I asked again, the answer was still the same. I decide to stop asking the same question. I just hope he really okay. Whatever his problem is, God, Please take care of him.

my holiday.. ups.. our holiday..

Seneng banget minggu lalu bisa berlibur 4 hari.. and here are the details:

day 1,
kamis, 8 april 2009

hem, actually i lost my right to vote this time.. sedih sih tapi yah apa boleh buat.. pokoknya nanti pilpres harus ikut nyontreng.. HARUS! hehehe.. jadi menghabiskan liburanya bareng manda.. yeee.. i always have so much fun when with him ^_^ kita liburannya dirumah aja.. nonton dorama "My boss My Hero episode 2" hehehe.. pokoknya nonton itu, tiap kali selesai pasti penasaran pengen nonton lanjutannya.. hahaha.. liburan yang ga bisa dilupain.. i still remember when he took me home.. pulangnya naik bus 46.. eh blom ada 1/4 perjalanan uda busnya mogok.. hikss.. padahal duduk.. uda gitu pas naik bus yang laen eh, berdiri.. hiks.. tapi tetap menyenangkan ^_^ terus makan es krim mint chip yang aku rasa ga ada dimana2 selain di Mall Taman Anggrek.. hehehehe.. and the day ended with a wish to make the next day more fun.. piss..


day 2,

jumat, 10 april 2009

sepertinya ga begitu ingat hari ini ngapain.. hehhehee.. tapi yang pasti aku gereja bareng manda.. secara hari ini jumat agung.. personally, aku belajar banyak hari ini.. aku diingatkan lagi bagaimana Kristus mati buat ku.. buat dosa2ku.. karena kasihNya.. that's why i should live for Him not for world.. memancarkan kasihNya ke semua orang bahkan ke segala sesuatu yang sudah Dia ciptakan..

btw, hari ini manda beliin baju cantik buatku ^_* thank's hunn for the shirt.. so beautiful.. i like it alot..

day 3,

sabtu, 11 april 2009

hehehehe.. i wear a new shirt.. and the trip begins from citra land.. makan siang di pasar senggol citra land.. hehehe.. aku ga bisa lupa waktu itu manda me'nyenggol' kursi dan gelas berisi lemon tea pun tumpah.. bener2 sesuai nama tempatnya.. pasar senggol.. so, hati2 kalo kesana.. keep on eye on the things around you.. and then perjalanan dilanjutkan ke monas.. hehehe.. untuk ke 'lantai 3' kami harus antri selama 2 jam.. dalam hati sih bilang "mudah2an ini worth it pas sampe di atas.. mudah2an ".. dan ternyata.. ga ada yang bisa di lihat di atas monas itu.. ga ada pemandangan indah ato pemandangan lain di atas sana.. cape de.. tapi tetep aja seru.. jadi ketawa2 lucu aja.. ternyata oh ternyata.. akhirnya dari situ kecapean dan lapar.. jadi akhirnya makan di kfc yang di jalan gajah mada deket Lion Air Tower.. cuci muka, ganti baju, makan dan liat2 bentar di carrefour (karena katanya ada diskon sampe 90%) terus lanjutin liburan lagi ke Kota Tua.. karana hari dah malem jadi pemandangan kota tua itu apalagi di site2 yang ga rame jadi terkesan kuno dan sangat serem.. hiiiiihhh.. tapi emang unik dan berasa kembali ke jaman2 belanda gitu (hehehehe gayanya.. kae pernah hidup dijaman belanda aja..) akhirnya the day end up with makan kerak telor..

Di Pasar Senggol Citraland

day 4,
minggu, 12 april 2009

hem.. happy sunday and happy easter.. hari ini juga ga liburan jauh, dirumah aja nonton dorama lagi lanjutin My Boss My Hero episode 3.. hehehehe.. lucu banget dan tetap masih penasaran mau nonton yang episode 4 nya.. terus gereja di duren sawit.. terus ke Slipi jaya, makan di Solaria.. hem.. nice place.. view nya bagus, makanan nya enak, lagunya enak.. mantaB de pokoknya.. hehehhe.. jalan2 keliling2 mall nya sebentar terus.. pulang deh.. hem.. what a nice haliday.. kapan yah liburan lagi.. terus, kalo liburan lagi, kemana yah???

liburan selalu emang ga bisa dilupakan.. seneng banget rasanya bisa liburan bareng manda.. He is always coloring my day.. btw, manda jadi suka nonton dorama gara2 "My Boss My Hero" hehehehe.. thank's God for the holiday.. now.. bye bye holiday and back to work.. ganbate kudasai!!

Dear God,

I’m still thinking about Manda’s friends. I don’t know why they are thinking negatively about me. I’m not making something wrong to them. I remembered the time when I was introduced to them. At that time, something happened. I did not handshake with Ine. I thought I knew her already (we ever met before) so that it wasn’t too important to handshake with her. But unfortunately, she was the only one that I did not handshake with. And it finally has become problem until today eventhough I’ve explained everything to her, said my sorry and she had understood enough (as she said via SMS). I thought this case was closed and not a big problem. But I was totally wrong.

I don’t know what they are thinking about me, what ‘unreal’ story they have made with their own thinking and what gossip that has spread throughout their community. And for me this is not fair. They didn’t know anything. They didn’t know the true story. I’m feeling sad and uncomfortable. Why do they act so childish? I thought in our age we should be act more like adult then like child. Why do they still ‘life in the past’? Just because Ine ever had special relationship with Manda when they were in Senior High School then this become a problem? How if that time the one that I did not handshake with is somebody else (not Ine), do this still become a ‘long-term’ problem? Just You know everything, God. And You are my defender.

I love Manda and I accept all things that he brings into our relationship not only his ethnical background, family condition, good and bad temper, but also his past including with whom he ever had a special relationship. I know that it could not be separated from him. And I also know that it is just the past. No need to be opened again. It was all over. And now we need to make boundaries with our old and new relation with man or woman because I’m not alone now, so is he. I just hope they do understand, forget the thing that ever happened because it already cleared and the important one is not to relate this with the past because for me this is fulsome. God, I hope I can be endure and wiser to face this.

mandaquuu...

Dear Manda,

Sesi Curhat: Mandaqu.. tadi anet hampir aja dicopet.. wkt di P6 tadi pagi, anet kan bergelantungan (hihihi - berasa kae monyet aja) terus waktu itu busnya penuh.. tiba-tiba anet denger ada suara aneh asalnya dari tas anet.. ssrrrrrtttt.. jadi spontan aja anet memalingkan wajah ke arah sumber bunyi itu.. upss.. ga da apa-apa.. anet ngeliat ke orang sekeliling sampe pandangan anet tertuju sama seorang cowo berbaju merah yang berdiri pas samping kiri anet.. rasanya ada yang aneh ama orang itu.. tapi anet ga curiga.. anet mikirnya "oo.. mungkin pas dia balik badan, tasnya bergesekan ama tasnya anet makanya tadi kedengaran bunyi yang aneh.." sounds good kan.. anet berpikir positif.. yeee.. terus pas di slipi si cowo itu pun turun beserta dengan begitu banyak orang yang lain, dan akhirnya busnya pun udah keliatan aga kosong.. terus perhatian anet tertuju sama bapak-bapak yang duduk di deket supir. Dia nanya sama seorang perempuan yang berdiri dekat dia. "Mba, ga ada yang hilang dari tasnya?" spontan sih perempuan melihat isi tasnya.. "Ga ada, pak" terus si bapak bilang kalo tadi ada yang mau nyopet, "tuh yang pake baju merah." sambil menunjuk cowo berbaju merah yang uda turun.. dalam hati "WWhhhaaattt???" terus anet meriksa tas anet juga.. oo.. ga ada yang hilang kog.. singkat cerita, anet nyampe kantor dengan hati yang senang dan wajah yang berseri-seri karena ga terlambat.. yeee.. pas mau meletakkan tas di meja anet melihat ada yang salah sama tasnya anet.. "yaa ampuunn!!!" tasnya anet disilet.. jadi ternyata bunyi yang tadi anet dengar adalah bunyi tas yang disilet.. hikss.. hikss.. sedih.. tasnya anet rusak padahal itu tas yang dibeliin mama.. hiks.. hiks.. tapi dalam hati juga anet bilang "Thanks God! Tuhan baik" karena ga ada yang hilang.. anet jadi belajar buat lebih berhati-hati dan waspada.

Sesi ga jelas: mandaqu... kangeeennnnn...

sampe situ dulu yah cerita anet.. anet sayang manda.. anet ga apa2 kog.. baik-baik aja..

Luvyu..